Have you ever had a moment of clarity? A moment with a feeling or a thought that comes to your mind so vividly and full of potency that you cannot ignore it? Well, I have to say that I have. And it is surprising in a good way, because it provides me with a chance to be more mindful and grow as a person. Growth and maturing happens to every human being (for the most part). One would think that it is less likely to be as potent and vivid at middle age. Yet, here I was...smacking the pavement pretty hard. With my face.
I wish I could say that, at 31 years old, I would have already learned the lessons that I needed to be taught; however, that isn't the case. Anyone who has read my poetry would know that I do not shy away from deep emotions. In fact, I tend to explore them. So when I found myself in a bout of PTSD from childhood abuses, I struggled against the knowledge and need to change my mentality.
Let me try to paint the picture:
You lose yourself. It is like floating over your body and viewing the world around you. You are unable to act. You are unable to speak. You can only feel, but it never helps. If you are lucky, it won't take time to return to your normal life.
I wasn't so lucky this time, but what it did was create a chance for growth. As person. As poet. As a writer. It gives me experience to write about. It gives me knowledge to create realism and emotion. And in the midst of that growth experience, I found myself at a blog post by a therapist who had experienced some negative issues as a child too. Something she said resonated with me so deeply that I still am unable to shake what she said. It made me focus on me and who I was as a person.
And that is the start of reflective writing...or in my case, reflective poetry. It's that raw emotion that creates amazing works! So ask yourself if you have some soul searching to do. If the answer is yes, perhaps you have the next unexpected source of material.
I wish I could say that, at 31 years old, I would have already learned the lessons that I needed to be taught; however, that isn't the case. Anyone who has read my poetry would know that I do not shy away from deep emotions. In fact, I tend to explore them. So when I found myself in a bout of PTSD from childhood abuses, I struggled against the knowledge and need to change my mentality.
Let me try to paint the picture:
You lose yourself. It is like floating over your body and viewing the world around you. You are unable to act. You are unable to speak. You can only feel, but it never helps. If you are lucky, it won't take time to return to your normal life.
I wasn't so lucky this time, but what it did was create a chance for growth. As person. As poet. As a writer. It gives me experience to write about. It gives me knowledge to create realism and emotion. And in the midst of that growth experience, I found myself at a blog post by a therapist who had experienced some negative issues as a child too. Something she said resonated with me so deeply that I still am unable to shake what she said. It made me focus on me and who I was as a person.
And that is the start of reflective writing...or in my case, reflective poetry. It's that raw emotion that creates amazing works! So ask yourself if you have some soul searching to do. If the answer is yes, perhaps you have the next unexpected source of material.
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